Cold Fear

Back in the days, I had no problem with cold water. Except in extremely cold weather, I always had a cold bath. Then, sometime in mid-2006, I came down with a terribly bad cold, and thus began the enmity between me and cold water. The cold was so bad that hot water bottle became my sleeping partner, and of course, it was bye-bye to cold bath.

Glory to God, He freed me from that ailment. However, I developed a morbid fear of cold water and since then, you wouldn’t catch me indulging a cold bath, not even in very warm or hot weather…..until few days ago. It so happened that gas decided to finish and the electric kettle chose to give up on me….at the same time! “Oh Lord, how am I gonna survive without hot water (trust me, food was the last thing on my mind)?”

That morning, I had no choice; it was either a cold bath or no bath and the latter was not an option. So I had a cold bath, but let me just be sincere with you, it was not a complete/thorough bath ooo, arrrrrgh! I took time out to visit the gas station but alas, gas was not available. I was told it would be available the next day and that meant another cold bath the next morning…chai, there is God ooo! I summoned courage and this time around, my self developed technique on ‘how to have a cold bath’ was better than the last time. I was at the gas station again but the outcome sapped the last energy out of me – gas still not available, check again tomorrow! “Another cold bath ordeal, Lord, why has Thou forsaken me?”??

I guess I could just go purchase another electric kettle, which is what I would have done on a good day, but I simply was not inclined to do so. I braced myself for another cold bath and surely, this time around, my technique had greatly improved. As I tactically applied my technique, I said to myself, “Ayotunde, you can surely do this; you can be free from this gripping fear…..see, you are actually having a cold bath!” I decided there and then to snap out of that fear and perfect my ‘cold bath technique’. I have made up my mind, I am free, I am no longer dependent on hot water!

Why did I recount this lengthy story? I didn’t mean to bore you, but I learnt a thing or two. Sometimes, past experiences or prevailing circumstances paralyse us with fear and put us under mental bondage. We find it difficult to operate beyond the circumference to which we are limited by fear and we under-achieve. This can be applied to every area of our lives. God does not put a limit on our potentials but fear does! Can we do some self-appraisals and discover those areas where we have limited ourselves through fear? Can we begin to break free from mental bondage and step out in faith?

“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity or cowardice or fear, but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of sound judgment and personal discipline [abilities that result in a calm, well-balanced mind and self-control].” 2Timothy 1:7 (AMP)

Again, when things suddenly go wrong, and it seems like nothing is working in our favour, God might be orchestrating great deliverance from bondage/oppression/affliction/limitation/etc on our behalves. His thoughts and plans for us are constantly good and though His ways are not always our ways, in the end, He makes all things (including the unpleasant ones) work together for our good!

“But He knows the way that I take [and He pays attention to it]. When He has tried me, I will come forth as [refined] gold [pure and luminous].” Job 23:10 (AMP)

AyotundeElegbeleye 2015©
Jesus is LORD!

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